Thursday, August 5, 2010
One Vote For World Equality - facebook post and comments
Peter Hutton Hi Andrea, thanks for the video, but the problem in the world isn't money and how it is distributed, that's a biproduct of an underlying foundation and premise most humans share. The way out is consciousness, awareness, and realizing everyo...ne is creating their own reality. The guy talking seems very passionate and I don't doubt his good intentions, but he is misguided all the same, and what I picked up on was a sense of powerlessness, his own and his projection onto others of their powerlessness. Are people powerless to change their lives? Possibly. But equally possible is they do have the power to change their life, they just don't know it or don't want to know it. I care about the poor. But I'd rather show them how to fish then give them fish if you know what i mean.
Maya Harel Peter, The solution that you suggested isn't standing through the test of time. Everyone is responsible for our reality Equally as one and this is why this physical reality exists as it does today where half of this world live in less the 2...$ a day, where children starve to death every few minutes and a women get raped every 3 second. We are responsible for it as well as all as equal.
What exists is the Law of Balance which means that when you create the good in your world, the bad must get balance somewhere! and it does. just open your eyes
Equal Money System is a temporary solution to the main goal - all Equal and One as Self realization, Here in this physical Reality.
To do that, All people must have the basic right as life - Food, Shelter, Education.
When those will be establish - people would have 'Time' to focus on them self, and realize themselves with Self Forgiveness, Self Honesty, Self corrective application and common sense.
The current problem in this world is Money - no matter how you'll look at it.Money became our 'God'. Equal money system will change the value of Money to Value of LIFE.
Now, i suggest you to hear unconditionally other people instead of project onto them your own interpretation of your Mind.
Turn it back to self and check for yourself who is really "powerless"
Half of this world don't have the power to change their life. they need money to do that - the need food to support their physical body. it's not that they don't know how - they just can't.
Now, when saying you care for the poor - OMG. are you really caring for the poor? becuase within your words, it doesn't seem that way - all you care about is YOU, from the starting point of self interest, not considering all as one as equal. not living as the principle of equality but as personality.
We are all living in this ONE physical reality, and we are all Responsibile for everything that exists.
Stop blinding your eyes and realize that as long as people are suffering, we all as one are suffering.
Until we stop.
So unless you have any other practical solution that will be effectively changing this world, i suggest to learn more about Equal money system, and check out Desteni Massage where you'll see for yourself the extant of what does it means Equal responsibility.
Matti Freeman yea, I know what you mean - you'd rather bring a child into a world where they have to earn the ability to even sustain themselves at a basic level through spending years proving to the system that they are valuable enough to the system to ...not be spit out
in an equal money system - what is proposed is a common sense system of support for life where from birth - you have value and never lose that value and thus are never SPIT OUT by the system because you are life and you have value.
Where you are given the tools to develop into a functionally effective participant on earth who can focus on developing and flourishing in expression and practical living to support your fellow man and to do your part to support the equality system that supports you so you can live the rest of your life in exploration and enjoyment of who you are as life instead of being trapped in a lifelong work schedule merely staying occupied with mental fantasy lands in lifestyles that are bought within consumerism and based on self definitions you have developed through being taught how to exist as a consumer from birth by parents / teachers / media / religion as in the current system -- where you then use sentiment and feelings to justify allowing starvation and poverty, deluded into believing that millions of starving people with no money and no access to any support structure simply has the magical ability to effectively support themselves -- so that you can feel okay going about your life of self interest until death
you've been misguided by the pictures / sentiments / feelings of religion and spirituality to support consumerism, separation and inequality through occupying yourself in your mind as an alternate self-interested 'reality' shaped by beliefs and opinions, where you value your mental / feeling / emotional sentiment and philosophy rather than actually valuing all life as principle and supporting that value to be honored in all ways at all levels as actual care
I suggest, do extensive research on all videos / articles produced thus far on the Equal Money system and consider that the support of life will not happen if the system does not function according to principle - principle that always equate what is best for all and never gives priority to opinion / belief / sentiment as in the current system
Monday, July 26, 2010
equal money will bring social change
Before survival becomes part of the equation, children get along and there is equality.
when children reach the age where they must start to learn to 'survive' socially and social anxieties / fears develop - gangs as 'social groups' start to form and continues for the rest of their lives in the money system. The current money system consists of social classes and competition in the work place with the goal of making more money to achieve a higher social class.
Thus in the current system, sociology is not about human beings expressing themselves with each other in equality as with very young children --- it is about competition and division within social classes which are determined by how much money you have.
an equal money system that removes the class system and competition for survival, essentially equalizes the social playing field from the perspective of restoring the opportunity for self expression that was present when we were very young.
in an equal money system -- there is no longer any purpose for the 'personalities' that have developed as part of the class / social system based on how much money you have.
The removal of such a 'class / social' structure based on how much money one has, will result in a change in the way we as human beings socialize and express ourselves.
when children reach the age where they must start to learn to 'survive' socially and social anxieties / fears develop - gangs as 'social groups' start to form and continues for the rest of their lives in the money system. The current money system consists of social classes and competition in the work place with the goal of making more money to achieve a higher social class.
Thus in the current system, sociology is not about human beings expressing themselves with each other in equality as with very young children --- it is about competition and division within social classes which are determined by how much money you have.
an equal money system that removes the class system and competition for survival, essentially equalizes the social playing field from the perspective of restoring the opportunity for self expression that was present when we were very young.
in an equal money system -- there is no longer any purpose for the 'personalities' that have developed as part of the class / social system based on how much money you have.
The removal of such a 'class / social' structure based on how much money one has, will result in a change in the way we as human beings socialize and express ourselves.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Equality always stops polarity
Equality always stops polarity - and when you stop the polarity you stop the need to find 'balance' because you restore Equal-Librium. Hence, the Equal-Life foundation.
The Equal Life Foundation presents An Equality System with Equal Money for All which will stop rich and poor and also the 'middle' class and will overrule spirituality's ideas about 'balance' which have been used to perpetuate polarity where some have a poor balance-sheet and others have a rich balance-sheet and some have a moderate balance-sheet -- where everyone is 'holding their balance' and trying to attain an even 'better balance'
With Equality, the system will never be 'imbalanced', and the purpose of our lives will no longer have to be about struggling to attain a position of monetary security where we can then say 'I'm balanced now because I have enough money in my balance' -- because support will be equal from birth to death
The Equal Life Foundation presents An Equality System with Equal Money for All which will stop rich and poor and also the 'middle' class and will overrule spirituality's ideas about 'balance' which have been used to perpetuate polarity where some have a poor balance-sheet and others have a rich balance-sheet and some have a moderate balance-sheet -- where everyone is 'holding their balance' and trying to attain an even 'better balance'
With Equality, the system will never be 'imbalanced', and the purpose of our lives will no longer have to be about struggling to attain a position of monetary security where we can then say 'I'm balanced now because I have enough money in my balance' -- because support will be equal from birth to death
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Poverty and Equal Money
Poverty is the Physical Reality of what is created by the current system - it is not actually 'negative' - 'negative' is a judgment.
Poverty is simply the physical fact of what happens when you don't have money within the system we are all agreeing upon and accepting.
In judging and defining poverty as 'the negative', and as 'bad', we then desire to attain the opposite as 'wealth', 'safety', 'security' and 'happiness' through getting MONEY which we have defined as 'the positive', in FEAR of poverty as 'the negative'.
The existence of poverty and starvation and lack actually supports the existence and success of corporations within consumerism, because corporations capitalize on our fear of poverty and lack, by presenting us with lots of stuff to BUY so we feel 'happy' and 'safe' within a bubble purchased with money.
so the whole time we are 'focusing on the positive' - which is all the nice stuff we want to have and experience through attaining money, we are actually supporting the existence of poverty as 'the negative'. This is because we have agreed to value money itself, as a tool with which to attain a nice life for ourselves, so that we don't have to experience poverty and starvation. And the current money system reflects this accepted value -- it does not function to support all Life within actually valuing all Life -- it functions to support our self interest, which is what we have agreed to be 'the way things are'.
If everyone had Equal Money where the value of money is equal to Life --- poverty would end, starvation would end -- but so would our current lifestyle based in consumerism where we are desiring and wanting all the 'positive' because we fear all the 'negative'
an Equal Money system removes the polarity of what we have defined to be 'positive' and 'negative'
as 'rich and poor'
Equal Money removes both the 'desire to survive' and the 'fear of not surviving' by giving everyone Equal survival
thus, Equal Money allows all the actual opportunity to LIVE, instead of just getting money to survive and experience the 'positive'
To not support Equal Money, simply reveals that you do not want to give everyone equal survival and life -- and that you value your money, instead of valuing life.
Poverty is simply the physical fact of what happens when you don't have money within the system we are all agreeing upon and accepting.
In judging and defining poverty as 'the negative', and as 'bad', we then desire to attain the opposite as 'wealth', 'safety', 'security' and 'happiness' through getting MONEY which we have defined as 'the positive', in FEAR of poverty as 'the negative'.
The existence of poverty and starvation and lack actually supports the existence and success of corporations within consumerism, because corporations capitalize on our fear of poverty and lack, by presenting us with lots of stuff to BUY so we feel 'happy' and 'safe' within a bubble purchased with money.
so the whole time we are 'focusing on the positive' - which is all the nice stuff we want to have and experience through attaining money, we are actually supporting the existence of poverty as 'the negative'. This is because we have agreed to value money itself, as a tool with which to attain a nice life for ourselves, so that we don't have to experience poverty and starvation. And the current money system reflects this accepted value -- it does not function to support all Life within actually valuing all Life -- it functions to support our self interest, which is what we have agreed to be 'the way things are'.
If everyone had Equal Money where the value of money is equal to Life --- poverty would end, starvation would end -- but so would our current lifestyle based in consumerism where we are desiring and wanting all the 'positive' because we fear all the 'negative'
an Equal Money system removes the polarity of what we have defined to be 'positive' and 'negative'
as 'rich and poor'
Equal Money removes both the 'desire to survive' and the 'fear of not surviving' by giving everyone Equal survival
thus, Equal Money allows all the actual opportunity to LIVE, instead of just getting money to survive and experience the 'positive'
To not support Equal Money, simply reveals that you do not want to give everyone equal survival and life -- and that you value your money, instead of valuing life.
Personal Interests and Consumerism
our 'personal interests as our 'lifestyle', each have a relevant industry within the system, which impulses our desires with symbols / pictures / words / sounds in television, movies, music, religion, magazines - providing us with a wide variety of 'choices' of ways to gratify our desires as 'personal interests' - which is consumerism
living only for our 'personal interests' as 'our lifestyle' supports abuse - because the industries exploit and abuse humans, nature and animals to produce the things we then buy to gratify our 'personal interests' -- with many industries competing to make the most profit off our desires - capitalizing on our 'personal interests' for a 'lifestyle'
many people say they support 'change' -- but react to and attack any proposed change that would threaten or change their current 'lifestyle' which is bought through consumerism
when 'who you are' is a personality defined by a lifestyle that must be maintained through continually participating in consumerism - which is self interest -- then EQUALITY is a threat to YOU as your personality and YOU as your lifestyle - and thus, you react and defend the current system which is you defending your personality
in an Equal Money System - the system will no longer exploit humans, animals, or nature to maintain industries which exist solely as consumerism to gratify people's desires to exist in their own personal bubble as a 'lifestyle' they they believe they 'chose'
See - you don't actually choose your lifestyle.
The way you participate in consumerism - the lifestyle you end up in, is based on your initial upbringing, education, and environmental influences which shaped the patterns of behavior / beliefs / self definitions / opinions that you then live out as your 'personality' which determines the nature and appearance of the lifestyle you assemble using money which you earned through finding a job that best suits your personality, level of education and behavioral patterns.
living only for our 'personal interests' as 'our lifestyle' supports abuse - because the industries exploit and abuse humans, nature and animals to produce the things we then buy to gratify our 'personal interests' -- with many industries competing to make the most profit off our desires - capitalizing on our 'personal interests' for a 'lifestyle'
many people say they support 'change' -- but react to and attack any proposed change that would threaten or change their current 'lifestyle' which is bought through consumerism
when 'who you are' is a personality defined by a lifestyle that must be maintained through continually participating in consumerism - which is self interest -- then EQUALITY is a threat to YOU as your personality and YOU as your lifestyle - and thus, you react and defend the current system which is you defending your personality
in an Equal Money System - the system will no longer exploit humans, animals, or nature to maintain industries which exist solely as consumerism to gratify people's desires to exist in their own personal bubble as a 'lifestyle' they they believe they 'chose'
See - you don't actually choose your lifestyle.
The way you participate in consumerism - the lifestyle you end up in, is based on your initial upbringing, education, and environmental influences which shaped the patterns of behavior / beliefs / self definitions / opinions that you then live out as your 'personality' which determines the nature and appearance of the lifestyle you assemble using money which you earned through finding a job that best suits your personality, level of education and behavioral patterns.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Self Forgiveness - thoughts in relation to making music
Some thoughts and experiences I have been facing in relation to making music, that I used smoking to suppress and not deal with
'I must 'be the best' and 'achieve perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must be the best
I forgive myself that I have a accepted and allowed myself to think that I must 'achieve perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make 'perfect music'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music according to an idea of 'perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as a process within which I must 'achieve' something
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be the best
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make the best music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my music to be the best
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an experience of having achieved perfection in relation to making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to have an experience of being the best when I make a song, and within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I make music but do not have an experience of 'being the best', then judge myself as failing myself and become discouraged with myself. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my experience of discouragement, to believe that it is actually indicating and telling me that I have failed myself, instead of realizing and seeing that I create the entire emotional experience through my own accepted ideas and definition and beliefs of and about myself in relation to music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as an idea of perfection, and to within this, expect myself to live up to
and meet my idea of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts and ideas that arise in my mind of me being the 'best' - where I will then judge what I am doing, judge the music I am making through the eyes of these thoughts and ideas, instead of expressing myself here in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - when my parents would tell me I am good, and that I am talented, and that I am gifted, judge myself to be more than the rest, and create a standard within myself that I must be the best.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define perfection as 'being better than the rest'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for my music to be 'better than the rest.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for myself to be 'better than the rest.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'gifted'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'gifted' as - being bestowed with more value than another, as being better than another, as being more than another
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have been bestowed with more value than another being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am more than another being - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my music needs to be more than, and better than the music of others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - allow myself to believe that what and who and how my parents tell me I am - is in fact what I am, who I am, and how I am - instead of realizing that these are only definitions of myself that I accept and then experience myself as and participate in my world as - and that these definitions are not who I really am, how I really am, what I really am.
If I can't make it perfect, what's the use?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thinking that if I can't make something 'perfect' then 'what's the use'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this thought through having accepted and allowed myself to have ideas and definitions of myself being required to achieve perfection, according to a projected idea of perfection I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into self defeat when I've experienced that I did not live up to my standard of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as an energetic veil to hide within when I would experience the thought of 'what's the use' - instead of from the very beginning when I first had the thought, stand here in and as breath as me - and assist and support myself within self honesty to investigate the thought and stop it with self forgiveness and self corrective application.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought of 'what's the use'? as a statement of futility towards something.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is 'futile' to make music if I cannot experience myself as 'having achieved perfection' each time I make music. lol.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I am making music, expect myself to have a feeling of being satisfied that what I am making is 'perfect'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the experience of futility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my existence is futile - instead of realizing this is merely a deliberate statement of not allowing myself to live as Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to live as Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as a veil to hide from my experience of futility and 'what's the use'
I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want in relation to making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of 'total freedom' defined by having whatever I need available at my fingertips at all times
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as something I am only able to do if my idea of 'total freedom' is being met by my environment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I 'can't make music' unless I have 'total freedom' as defined by my environment providing me with everything that I could possibly need
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want' or else I am not able to make music, and it is not worth making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my idea of 'total freedom' as a standard that must be met by my environment for me to then be able to make music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make 'making music' into a 'big deal' for myself
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply work fully with is in my hands that is available, and to take the practical steps to making money to then be able to afford other things
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the money system for my experience of limitation and frustration within making music - instead of realizing and acknowledging that I have not in fact been allowing myself to live fully within what is here available - thus seeing that the money system is not to 'blame' and cannot be 'blamed' for my experience - because I am the one that created my idea of freedom that I then placed as the standard which I want and expect my environment as the world to provide for me - instead of realizing the simple facts of how the system exists, and realizing that the system cannot be blamed, and it is not practical to 'expect something' from the system, and thus, to support myself would be to live fully within what I have available, and take the necessary steps required to make money and buy the things that I I require in order to place my expression more effectively
I could do better, I could make better music'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could do better'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could make better music'
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize how unnecessary it is to have thoughts about what I am doing -- because I see that I can always see directly what I am doing, what requires attention, what could be done more effectively, etc -- because I am participating physically. Thus having thoughts about what I am doing physically is stupid and useless. Especially when I allow my thoughts to ratify my actual physical action and expression.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the music I make as 'not good enough', and then become discouraged and 'feel bad' about myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in my thoughts
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my expression as being 'not good enough' - instead of realizing that expression is not about 'good and bad' - it is about me - it is me expressing - simple. And I am here in a reality, in which I use certain objects and tools to facilitate the placement of my expression in this reality. Thought is not necessary within this - my thoughts are not Here as this physical reality that I am working with.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as inferior musicians
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the superior musician I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define music within and as the polarity of 'superior and inferior' - and to within this, want and desire to be the superior musician
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that the degree of effectiveness and specificity of music people make has nothing to do with the person being 'superior' or 'inferior' -- because the expression that is placed merely reflects who the person is and how they have physically directed themselves within making the music - thus the polarity judgment is irrelevant - the comparison is irrelevant - because self expression is about Self, Me, Here - Who I Am.
'I must 'be the best' and 'achieve perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must be the best
I forgive myself that I have a accepted and allowed myself to think that I must 'achieve perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make 'perfect music'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music according to an idea of 'perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as a process within which I must 'achieve' something
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be the best
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make the best music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my music to be the best
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an experience of having achieved perfection in relation to making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to have an experience of being the best when I make a song, and within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I make music but do not have an experience of 'being the best', then judge myself as failing myself and become discouraged with myself. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my experience of discouragement, to believe that it is actually indicating and telling me that I have failed myself, instead of realizing and seeing that I create the entire emotional experience through my own accepted ideas and definition and beliefs of and about myself in relation to music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as an idea of perfection, and to within this, expect myself to live up to
and meet my idea of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts and ideas that arise in my mind of me being the 'best' - where I will then judge what I am doing, judge the music I am making through the eyes of these thoughts and ideas, instead of expressing myself here in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - when my parents would tell me I am good, and that I am talented, and that I am gifted, judge myself to be more than the rest, and create a standard within myself that I must be the best.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define perfection as 'being better than the rest'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for my music to be 'better than the rest.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for myself to be 'better than the rest.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'gifted'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'gifted' as - being bestowed with more value than another, as being better than another, as being more than another
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have been bestowed with more value than another being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am more than another being - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my music needs to be more than, and better than the music of others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - allow myself to believe that what and who and how my parents tell me I am - is in fact what I am, who I am, and how I am - instead of realizing that these are only definitions of myself that I accept and then experience myself as and participate in my world as - and that these definitions are not who I really am, how I really am, what I really am.
If I can't make it perfect, what's the use?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thinking that if I can't make something 'perfect' then 'what's the use'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this thought through having accepted and allowed myself to have ideas and definitions of myself being required to achieve perfection, according to a projected idea of perfection I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into self defeat when I've experienced that I did not live up to my standard of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as an energetic veil to hide within when I would experience the thought of 'what's the use' - instead of from the very beginning when I first had the thought, stand here in and as breath as me - and assist and support myself within self honesty to investigate the thought and stop it with self forgiveness and self corrective application.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought of 'what's the use'? as a statement of futility towards something.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is 'futile' to make music if I cannot experience myself as 'having achieved perfection' each time I make music. lol.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I am making music, expect myself to have a feeling of being satisfied that what I am making is 'perfect'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the experience of futility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my existence is futile - instead of realizing this is merely a deliberate statement of not allowing myself to live as Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to live as Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as a veil to hide from my experience of futility and 'what's the use'
I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want in relation to making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of 'total freedom' defined by having whatever I need available at my fingertips at all times
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as something I am only able to do if my idea of 'total freedom' is being met by my environment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I 'can't make music' unless I have 'total freedom' as defined by my environment providing me with everything that I could possibly need
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want' or else I am not able to make music, and it is not worth making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my idea of 'total freedom' as a standard that must be met by my environment for me to then be able to make music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make 'making music' into a 'big deal' for myself
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply work fully with is in my hands that is available, and to take the practical steps to making money to then be able to afford other things
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the money system for my experience of limitation and frustration within making music - instead of realizing and acknowledging that I have not in fact been allowing myself to live fully within what is here available - thus seeing that the money system is not to 'blame' and cannot be 'blamed' for my experience - because I am the one that created my idea of freedom that I then placed as the standard which I want and expect my environment as the world to provide for me - instead of realizing the simple facts of how the system exists, and realizing that the system cannot be blamed, and it is not practical to 'expect something' from the system, and thus, to support myself would be to live fully within what I have available, and take the necessary steps required to make money and buy the things that I I require in order to place my expression more effectively
I could do better, I could make better music'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could do better'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could make better music'
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize how unnecessary it is to have thoughts about what I am doing -- because I see that I can always see directly what I am doing, what requires attention, what could be done more effectively, etc -- because I am participating physically. Thus having thoughts about what I am doing physically is stupid and useless. Especially when I allow my thoughts to ratify my actual physical action and expression.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the music I make as 'not good enough', and then become discouraged and 'feel bad' about myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in my thoughts
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my expression as being 'not good enough' - instead of realizing that expression is not about 'good and bad' - it is about me - it is me expressing - simple. And I am here in a reality, in which I use certain objects and tools to facilitate the placement of my expression in this reality. Thought is not necessary within this - my thoughts are not Here as this physical reality that I am working with.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as inferior musicians
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the superior musician I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define music within and as the polarity of 'superior and inferior' - and to within this, want and desire to be the superior musician
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that the degree of effectiveness and specificity of music people make has nothing to do with the person being 'superior' or 'inferior' -- because the expression that is placed merely reflects who the person is and how they have physically directed themselves within making the music - thus the polarity judgment is irrelevant - the comparison is irrelevant - because self expression is about Self, Me, Here - Who I Am.
Friday, July 2, 2010
July 3 2010 - Self Forgiveness on not being more organized
what things do I see others being / applying that I compare myself to and judge myself for not doing?
being organized and orderly -- I judge myself for not being as orderly and organized as I see I could be to make certain parts of my life easier to handle and keep track of
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I
see I could be doing something in a more organized way, but I'm not
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I see I am taking a shortcut in something and not being as organized as I could be, and in that making it more difficult to keep track of something / handle something
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others who I see as being 'more organized than me' - instead of assisting and supporting myself by directing myself to organize my world more effectively in areas where I see and experience that I am not being effective in organization
being organized and orderly -- I judge myself for not being as orderly and organized as I see I could be to make certain parts of my life easier to handle and keep track of
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I
see I could be doing something in a more organized way, but I'm not
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I see I am taking a shortcut in something and not being as organized as I could be, and in that making it more difficult to keep track of something / handle something
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others who I see as being 'more organized than me' - instead of assisting and supporting myself by directing myself to organize my world more effectively in areas where I see and experience that I am not being effective in organization
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