Self Forgiveness Jan. 27 2009 - money anxiety

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety towards money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define money as the solution to anxiety about money - instead of realizing that my anxiety about money exists within me because I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money, therefore the anxiety I experience when I think about not having enough money, motivates me to try and get money so that I do not have to experience anxiety anymore -- but in this, money is not the solution - because I am existing within the polarity of having enough / not enough money - indicating that I fear to lose money - because I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the polarity manifestations of this world of rich and poor -- with rich defined as 'free' and poor defined as 'not free' -- therefore within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom as having money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that as long as I have money saved and hoarded away - I will be safe and free, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define safety as 'having money saved and hoarded away'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money has power and value in and of itself - instead of realizing that the power and value that money has, is what I accept and allow myself to assign to money - making money in and of itself a sign of value and power - in this, creating the desire in me to have money, so that I can have that which is valuable and powerful - so that I can be valuable and powerful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define enslavement as 'not having money'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in relationship towards rich and poor - in separation of those who experience wealth and poverty, and to see poverty as something that I would not want to experience and therefore I must have money so that I do not have to exist like those who are poor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the idea that 'having money equals having freedom'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the idea that 'not having money equals not having freedom'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by fear of not having enough money - instead of stopping within and as my experience of fear and not accepting or allowing myself to be influenced by what I am feeling - but instead, direct myself in self honesty


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear existing in poverty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of rich and poor - instead of seeing that rich and poor are just ideas - points of a polarity used to justify the existence of both wealth and poverty