Self Forgiveness Nov. 9 2008 - beauty, art, ugliness, love, judgment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others based on the idea of value a being has according to the standards of beauty presented by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the standards of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as having less value than people who embody the standards of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people as ugly or beautiful based on the standards of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of ugly and beautiful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people who embody my idea of attractive as having more value than those who do do not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people who embody my idea of ugly as having less value than those who do not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to define quality of life as having money and being attractive according to the standards of beauty and success presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money equals value

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life according to money and beauty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to embody the standard of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to embody and attain to the standards of success presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money = success = life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the my idea of beauty is real

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize the separation implied within the idea that beauty and success = value = life - wherein, if one has money one has value
if one has beauty one has value
if one has neither beauty nor money, then one is inherently valueless according to the system's standards and definitions of value
and therefore one without beauty or money is seen as worthless, and therefore bases their entire existence around achieving wealth and success, so as to feel worthy, and to appear as and be treated as worthy and valuable by others

and, when someone has beauty and yet is not successful and has no money, they are seen as valuable and precious, because of their inherent beauty, and are therefore treated as more than an ugly person without money, simply because beauty = value

so, by virtue of birth, people are born either inherently valuable or inherently valueless, based on the standards of beauty and money

and also, beauty includes the 'beauty' of art and music - so therefore if you have an ugly person with miraculous talent and capability to produce works of 'beauty' for others to experience --- that person is seen as beautiful by virtue of their 'creative talent'

so, if you have someone who is beautiful and an amazingly talented artist, and has money --- they are basically god, worthy of love, adoration and praise

and look at what god represents: creativity, beauty, and abundance - and therefore god is worthy of love, adoration and praise -- which is why life is disregarded by all in favor of the worship of beauty and money

the world is for the most part 'ugly', so naturally people seek that which embodies the idea of beauty --- therefore heaven is such an attractive idea, because it is the embodiment of beauty as defined by the standards and definitions of beauty presented by this world

thus, in existing within such a starting point, taking into consideration life as all as one as equal, is totally illogical and incomprehensible - as the idea and definition of life as defined by beauty and value according to the standards and definitions of the system, can only exist in separation from all as one as equal

therefore culture is truly a cult, where everyone worships beauty and money in their way, and no one sees life, no one sees common sense or self honesty - because to see common sense would mean giving up everything that life in this world is based on - beauty and money

and with sex as the orgasmic experience of ritualistic 'fulfillment' and 'satisfaction' achieved when two beautiful/talented/successfull people come together in an explosion of divine gratification -- communing in the presence of god as beauty and money

and love? we are so warped and delusional that we use the word love based solely on the value and worth we've assigned someone or something according to the standards of beauty/talent/success

and we proclaim that 'love is all there is' and 'love is the solution' -- but if over night all the money went away and everyone turned ugly and the 'beauty' of nature disappeared -- what would there be left to love? we've never loved anything, because we've never loved ourselves, we've never loved life itself - all one and equal -- we've made statements of unconditional love for all in 'oneness' -- but these statements are made from the starting point of 'loving' the 'beauty of life' - not the beingness of life itself as all as one as equal

therefore beauty and love as defined by and of this world, are a total dishonor to life, a total dishonor to self